I'm 154. Almost 155. How did this happen?
I was doing so well the past few days, then my pounds just started adding on... I'm so upset. And tomorrow my mom is taking me out to dinner for Valentines day and i'm so fat!? How am i supposed to look nice now? I feel awful, i look awful, and worst of all, i can't figure out why? I mean i'm not eating that much still! So far today i've eaten a handful of peanuts and chocolate chips, and green tea. I've been surviving on gum starting yesterday and i'm just so disgusted with myself that i could just gain so much when i was almost at my 20 pounds lost weight! How do i expect to be 135 by March now? I've got about 20 lbs to loose. At most if i starve myself each day i'll loose at most 10 lbs... And i can't find my laxatives or get the balls to purge on my own. I've got 18 days to loose 19.7 lbs. I'm really gonna have to pull this outta my ass.
Now that i write this i'm starting to think of why i am be eating so much... I've been going to bed at around 6 or 7 am each morning, waking up at 11... So at most i'm getting 5 hours of sleep each day? I know being sleep deprived can make you hungry... So starting today, here are the new rules...
~ Be asleep by 2-3 am (or getting at least 9 hours of sleep a night)
~ No eating after 8, only tea or water
~ Weighing in each day
One of my ana buddies gave me a great tip. What she does is limit herself to eating a few things. Mine are going to be... Reduced Fat cheezits (30 are 150 calories i believe) Tea, extra gum, and i think that should be good.
I'll get back to you tomorrow and see if i've done any better!
