No Sleep+No Food= NO ENERGY.

So last night i was up really late (as usual) and only managed to get at MOST 4 hours... But now that i think about it... I only got 3. It's hard to eat so little and then sleep so little, expecting to carry on the day as normal. I'm drinking some apple cidar and just had a cup of tea. I also had a small omelette and spinach thingy. That's it for the day, but i might have something later since i'm feeling really weak...

I weighed in 2 days ago, and i was 151.5 lbs i think? I was supposed to weigh in today, but i was so tired and drowsy i forgot... But i'mm try to weigh in tomorrow! Hopefully i'll be at least 150. My goal for beginning of February was 145 but any weight i loose is fine. I think i'll attempt at loosing a minimum of 10 lbs a month... At least that way i'll be around 130 for beginning of spring! I have 2 of my favorite dresses hung on my door next to my bed. I haven't worn them yet, but the only problem with them is, i bought them in an extra large... If i plan to be 115, i don't know how i'm going to fit in them, and i bought them so long ago i don't have the receipt or tags.

Plus they're lace so i can't sew them... One has a draw string around the waist, so i should be bale to make that work, the other is a babydoll... If i can figure out how to shrink that one down i can def wear it!

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You know what i really want? I want boobs so small that i can just put a piece of tape over my nipple and not even need a bra or support... I just HATE boobs. I think they're awful. I would rather be 500 lbs and be flat than be 100 lbs and have size D breasts. The only way to loose breast size (so i've heard) is by being anorexic. Of course there's always lypo with i WILL get if this anorexic lifestyle doesn't make the cut... But i mean if i can make it down to 115 the fat in my boobs should be non-existent, no?

I will pray.wish.dream. that they shrink...

~A Dreamer ♥